Saturday, November 17, 2012

7 is an Extraordinary Year!!!
Boy, I can't believe how time is flying by.  I have to write all that has transpired this year before too much passes and I forget.

Shae is growing so fast, she has lost 4 teeth already and each has been replaced just as quickly.  She started Karate class in mid September, where Tyler and Dylan go.  Sensei Steve is a wonderful teacher and has a great way with the kids, making jokes and very engaging.  Shae has really taken to it quickly, especially after I donned my old ghee and got hers (Double Take) on with our old white belt, and we practiced before she actually started.  She is a natural with amazing side kicks.  She kicks higher than anyone in her class.  And boy is she cute in that ghee! 

There are all ages and degrees of kids in her class (9 and younger mostly).  She has been helped by many (mostly boys) kids who are higher degree belts, which she seems to enjoy (more added incentive).   When she first started, she wanted to be the "most degree black belt" and would talk about doing karate and becoming the best.  She wanted to then come back and wear her white belt and fool everyone.  We talked about people in China that were so good, that they could practically fly.  This really got her attention.  She kept asking me who was the best at it.  I had no idea, the only name that came out was Genghis Khan.  She grabbed onto this name and wanted to know more.  I told her he wast the greatest conquerer but didn't think he was a martial artist.  Not wanting her to think he was a hero, I told her he probably wasn't liked because he had killed so many people and wasn't very nice.  She asked me if she was Genghis Khan in a past life, I told her I didn't think so, and muscle tested "no".  Later that evening she came up to me and told me that she thought she had killed Genghis Khan in a past life, that she was a girl and had a sword.  I laughed and said I didn't know how he died, but would look it up.  When we googled it, I was shocked.  It said the following:

 Wikipedia says : "On August 18, 1227, during his last campaign with the Western Xia Empire of the Tanguts, Genghis Khan died. The reason for his death is uncertain. Many assume he fell off his horse, due to old age and physical fatigue; some contemporary observers cited prophecies from his opponents. The Galician-Volhynian Chronicle alleges he was killed by the Tanguts. There are persistent folktales that a Tangut princess, to avenge her people and prevent her rape, castrated him with a knife hidden inside her and that he never recovered."


I muscle tested and it was affirmative.  My daughter had killed the Greatest Conquerer of the World!!!  Everything was making sense.  Here was a huge puzzle piece that had beleaguered and scared me until the truth was revealed.  Shae at 4 years old was drawing Word Girl holding a knife between peoples legs.  I showed this to her therapist who was concerned but had a wait and see attitude.  Shae has always been so filled with rage and fights vehemently for any slight injustices.  A mean look, someone making fun of a friend;  she would want to kill that person.  I was very concerned because her rage would take over and she would often lose control and probably scare a lot of people.  She was having difficulty maintaining friendships from one day to the next.  This past life explained everything.  I told her in this life she could let go of feeling like she did in that life, people were not out to harm her, she did not have to "kill Genghis Khan".  In this lifetime, she could enjoy it and feel safe and learn how to forgive people.  Something clicked inside her, she had a big relief of knowing why she held so much anger inside her (previously, she would get angry at herself after and episode and not know why this rage overtook her).  A huge layer was lifted off her.  She could now be softer.


 In conjunction with this knowledge,  she started to understand boys and how they may tease her at school but really like her.  Before if they made a face, she would be infuriated and hate them and want to kill them.  Now, she wondered why they like her.  And it seemed like a lot of boys liked her.  Karate really helped her see boys differently as they are all helpful and not at all disdainful.

For Historical Halloween, she had to be a famous historical artist.  Knowing Shae, I tried to find a woman artist who looked good, but I wanted to see if there was a Chinese female artist. I couldn't find any online. There were none in the library, but we got a name from a librarian "Pan YuLiang".  We looked her up and saw she did a lot of nudes.  Justin wasn't crazy about that, he wanted Shae to pick someone by their art first.  I knew Shae would want to pick them by their beauty.  We were going to Denver to be with family and BBBY, so we would ask my brother-in-law Tom, who was a curator at the Denver Art Museum for Chinese Art.  He told us that he had a woman coming to speak who was the authority on Pan YuLiang.  We were thrilled and started to look her up online.  It turns out she was one of the first females to go to art school and then to travel and study in Paris.  There were movies and TV series and 2 books written about her life.  It said she was an orphan and left with her uncle at 8 yo and then sold to a brothel, where she met a man who became her benefactor and she his concubine.  It was quite a story.  I wasn't sure how Shae would tell it or if we would gloss over some of these facts.  I did muscle test that Shae was her in a past life, so I wanted to buy the book and see the movie to understand more.
When we went to the talk, we found out that the book that the movie and hype was based on, was fabricated.  She was not a prostitute, but fell in love with a man who was a high ranking rebel.  She was an extraordinary painter, sculptor who studied in Paris and combined Western techniques with Eastern ink painting.  She was very suspicious and didn't trust art dealers and was so prolific in her art, she died with 4,000 pieces.

This explained another problem that we had been having this summer.  Shae would come home from camp with a grocery bag full of "projects" and "work".  Shae has always been so prolific.  The activity room was becoming like something out of a hoarding show.  No one, not even Shae wanted to go in there.  I was getting very cranky and overwhelmed by it all.  I finally broke down and told the family we were all going to clean it up.  We did.  But I was still concerned about her "hoarding" tendencies.  Now I understood and it has not been too much of a problem.

I am beginning to understand some deep issues that we can release from Shae and myself.  It has brought us so much closer.  The things a mother fears can drive a wedge between her and her daughter, the beginnings of that wedge, have now disappeared.  Thank goodeness!

The last bit of info, Gluten free.  We have been gluten free for over a year (or two?).  Shae still gets cravings but is so knowledgeable and knows it hurts her brain.  She wishes that gluten and sugar were good for you.  But recently she had a pretzel that was gluten containing, she had some belly aches and then two days later caught a bad bug that was going around.  She had diahrrea for 4 days straight.  She would have intense cramping and then explosive diarrhea.  It was miserable.  No one slept well.  After it was all over, and we could finally eat out.  Shae told me that she looks at gluten and thinks "boogers", so she won't want it (we had just passed a tray of cookies and pastries).  I was so impressed by her trying to create a negative association with gluten to resolve her wanting it.

Oh, yeah, this extremely talented girl is playing the piano like nobody's business, not having any lessons, she is composing songs for her movies.  She is writing books nonstop, and now she can read them!  She has always written books, even before she could write letters, and then before she could write words.  There is so much coming out of her.  Her creativitiy shows no bounds.  She is so extraordinary!  I feel so blessed and so proud of her.  She is now really proud of herself too.  How wonderful!

Much Love and Light to anyone still reading this blog.
Debbie

1 Comments:

At 5:04 AM , Blogger Deb and/or Justin said...

Had to make note of an interaction with Lynn on 8/12. Lynn asked Shaela "how about doint a special saying goodbye ceremony?" Shae "what do you mean?", Lynn gestures kissing through her hands and making a heart.
Shae "Lynn, I only live next door, I don't live 100 miles away. Let's just say "bye".

Later, Lynn says "When I brought you your painting and there were cracks, I was worried."
Shae: "Lynn, you worry too much!"

 

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